Slowly the world around me
is beginning to change.
At first, I thought that my vision
had become blurred.
People and objects
seem to have lost their edges
and there seems to be a
wavering movement in the air
when there was no breeze.
Conversely, certain things
are becoming more dense and
difficult to be around, or even look at.
I am beginning to avoid these things, or people,
as they upset me in a strange way
and because the overwhelming peace
of the rest of my environment
is so much more comfortable.
Time also seems to be changing.
It doesn’t seem to fit what the clock says.
Some hours seem to last a very long time
whereas other hours seem
to only last a few moments.
These changes in time seem
to be related to what I am doing.
Any activity which engages
my creative force speeds by
while it also appears to last forever.
Mundane activities, however,
crawl by like a snail
across the damp sidewalk.
I know I still have to
care for certain necessities of life,
but they seem to be
less and less necessary.
There is a feeling arising
from deep within my heart
that is different from anything
I have ever felt.
This feeling reminds me of
some distant memory which is awakening
a deep longing in every cell of my body.
This feeling brings about
different desires than I have ever felt.
But actually, they were latent desires
which I have always had,
and have never allowed myself to indulge.
Music, Art, Poetry, Nature,
Intimacy and Deep Communication
are becoming more important than
“making money”, “being right”
or “getting ahead”.
There is an inner compass
that seems to be leading me.
I do not know to where
and I don’t care.
I am actually living in Trust.
This compass takes my mind into places
that it has never before explored.
The fear and worry that has
so plagued me before
is being replaced with
a peace and sense of active waiting.
I don’t know exactly
what I am waiting for,
but I do know that I will
recognize it when it appears.
Meanwhile, the inner and outer worlds
are blurring into one.
The distinction between them
had once been very clear,
but now my imagination and activity
are becoming one.
I am living in a Globe of Light,
but I also sense a looming darkness.
Is this darkness growing
or is it merely becoming denser
and less diffuse so that it can
separate from the light?
But all light has darkness within it,
does it not?
However, this darkness is different.
This is a kind of darkness
that is afraid of the light.
In fact, maybe this darkness
is just FEAR.
Fear of change.
There is definitely
a change commencing.
I feel it from deep, deep within.
I don’t understand it,
but I know that this darkness
does not want to change.
It wants things to stay the same.
It refuses to realize that
there is a parting of paths
and that each one has to accept
this new reality or gradually
spiral downwards into
that which is ending.
A new vibration is coming to the planet.
I can not alter that,
nor can I avoid it.
I can only accept it.
In accepting it,
I must also accept myself.
I must face that place of darkness
within me that is
afraid to change,
afraid to trust.
I must bring that darkness
to the surface where it can be
exposed to the ever growing Light
and allow it to show itself to my consciousness.
I must journey deep
into the furthest recesses
of my lost hopes and dreams —
into those hidden places in my unconscious
where I have hidden the parts of myself
that are afraid…
afraid to face the light,
afraid to face the truth,
afraid to change…
Afraid to chose the new world
that is softly glimmering
just before me.
Afraid to grasp the invisible hand
that is touching me
deep inside my heart.
Can I give my fear
to this Hand of Love?
Can I trust
my dreams and imagination?
What is there to lose
but fear and darkness?
I will journey now deep into the core
of all hidden places and release my fear
to the Hand of Light!
I will allow my escalating vibration
to move deep into all the dark hiding places
of fear, anger and negativity to
uproot all resistance to change
and plant the seeds of HOPE.
Hope and Light and Love!
The Phoenix bird is rising.
I will leave my darkness in its ashes
and join it in flight!
