The time of waiting was almost over.
I knew that.
I could feel it in my Soul.
What else lay hidden within me
that was stopping my full conscious experience
of my multidimensional self?
I turned around inside my mind
and opened up my heart to my Self.
I calmed my physical body
and allowed my consciousness
to raise above the cares of my mundane life—
above survival,
above achievement,
above success,
and into the knowing…
Old familiar memories
tickled my awakening mind and
stroked my heart like the touch of an Angel.
Friends and comrades that I had known,
even before my first embodiment
rushed forward to greet me.
My Divine Complement
slipped neatly into my form.
I was united again.
She-he-I was complete.
Now my memories raised another octave
as I embraced more and more
portions of my Self—of my Soul.
“I am Home,”
I heard my own voice whisper.
But wait, there are no voices here
in this realm of
telepathy, empathy and all knowing.
Then I heard my heart thumping
and felt the chair upon which I sat.
I felt my feet
pushing against the carpet beneath me
as if to push it away, push my “self” away.
My eyes opened to see my physical room
and my ears heard the traffic sounds outside my window.
“No!” I cried.
“I don’t want to be here. I want to be there.”
Just as the doorway to my heart began to close
and the tears began to form in the corners of my eyes,
a glimmer of light entered the room.
Like the wisp of a butterfly’s wing
the glimmer fluttered into my heart
and stopped the door from closing.
It floated up to my mind like a feather caught in an updraft.
The tears of fear became tears of joy.
The clutching hands relaxed and opened – palms up.
My feet relaxed against the carpet
and I felt the comfort of its grounding support.
Yes, this was how it is meant to be.
This is what I had promised to do
long before I could remember,
long before I was born.
I calmed myself to remember
the world that I believed I had just left.
I felt that world, that reality inside my heart,
inside my mind.
I brought it all the way to the tips of my now relaxed hands,
into my toes, down through the carpet and into the earth beneath it.
The wings of the butterfly changed
into the wings of an eagle and
wrapped around my body like a cloud of light.
“Home is a state of consciousness,”
my friends from within reminded me.
“You have journeyed down into the womb
of Mother Earth to create a new life, not just for you,
not just for the planet, but also for the Light.
“Awaken now and find all of us
who have also taken earthen form.
We are also arousing our memories and hearing the call.
Like Sleeping Beauty, awakened by the kiss of love,
we are all bringing forth our promise.”
Yes, I knew now, I trusted.
I surrendered to the promise
I had volunteered to keep.
Now I just had to BE it.
