IlliaEm
IlliaEm communicated from the highest
dimension that I had been able to perceive.
7-1-95
Beloved One,
I am Illuminata Emaculatas, The Immaculate Illumination. I have also been known as IlliaEm–The Elohim of Arcturus. My true name cannot be spoken or written in your language, but close your eyes and ears now as you feel my signature.
I am a Solar Angel or Elohim of the Star System of Arcturus. You have felt my signature of pure, Divine and Unconditional Love. Earth is not the only planet that experiences love. Love is the vibration of Creation. However, Earth has been one of the few planets which have dared to extend the love vibration into the third dimension. Since the third dimension is one where the polarization of spirit and matter creates a separation of light and dark, Love can become polarized to the end of the spectrum which represents Light. Fear, on the other hand becomes polarized to the end of the spectrum which represents Darkness.
This polarization of love/light and fear/dark creates the feeling of separation that is characteristic of the third dimension. However, that separation is actually an illusion for these polarities are as intermingled as the blood in your third dimensional bodies. The darkness is like plasma, in that it offers a carrier for the light, and the light is like the blood cells, in that it is the building block and the continuation of life. So you can see that the darkness is as necessary as the light for one to experience the third dimension.
I am vibrating at a dimension where there is no separation.
Spirit and matter
light and dark
unity and separation
all are ONE!
We on Arcturus await your full reunion with our presence. We are so proud that you have remembered us.
Now, allow all that is of the old way to rise to the surface of your consciousness and to the surface of your physical form.
Allow all that is of the old to be released from the deepest and darkest portions of your third and fourth dimensional self like the blood from an old wound.
As it comes to the surface, it forms a shell.
At first, this shell will be hard and fast.
A first, all you may seem injured and feel the limitations and resentments of many, many lives.
These experiences are a part of your Earth experiences, and they need to be brought up from the darkness
before they can be healed and released—once and for all.
Feel now in your form how each tear of sadness,
each scream of sorrow,
and each shudder of loneliness is released into
the light of your consciousness to be healed.
Feel now in your form how each yell of anger,
each wince of frustration
and each outburst of rage is released into
the light of your consciousness to be healed. Feel now in your form how each gasp of horror,
each cringe of fear
and each cloud of depression is released into the
light of your consciousness to be healed.
The process of releasing is like a small bubble rising from the bottom of the stream.
Follow this bubble up from the core of your self.
Love it to the surface.
Allow it to join all that patiently awaits the moment of freedom from
the shadows of your memory.
Not just the memories of this life,
but the memories of all the lives that you have taken upon the third and fourth dimensional worlds.
These memories are of the past now, Beloved.
They are yesterday.
Today you are free.
Today you are victorious.
Today you are the sum total of all that you have ever been
since you first left the Godhead.
Feel the shell of yesterday about you.
Soon it will be released from your form.
Soon the clay “body” that has felt like a prison
will crack open to reveal your true body of LIGHT.
Await patiently now, my one.
Feel yourself as a seed beneath the earth awaiting the moment
when it breaks the surface to feel the Sun.
Feel yourself as the Sun enshrouded by the clouds waiting the moment
when your light can be revealed to all who will see.
Feel now your unity with ALL THAT IS.
Feel your wings, my dear.
You are like a butterfly struggling to be free of its cocoon.
Feel me, I am IlliaEm.
I am the Angel that radiates to the essence of your core.
It is time to be Home now!
It is time to remember and release.
Be courageous. All is as it must be.
And now, my Beloved, you must wait.
The process of healing is one of patience and faith.
Say with me now, Beloved:
I AM COMPLETE.
I AM THE RADIANCE OF ALL THAT I HAVE EVER EXPERIENCED.
I NOW WELCOME ALL MEMORIES
TO THE SURFACE OF MY CONSCIOUSNESS.
I AM READY TO BECOME MY TRUE, MULTIDIMENSIONAL SELF.
8-30-95
Dear IlliaEm
Please help me to understand what is happening inside of me these last few days. I know that the fear of survival is rising from the animal within me. However, there is another feeling that is so primal that I cannot put a word to it. It feels as if a long-lost part of my Soul, forgotten since I first took on a physical form, is beginning to awake after a long, long sleep.
I know that the other dimensions of my SELF have always been alive and active, but I (the part of “I” that is known as me) have not been aware of them. Perhaps my animal nature is afraid that I will abandon it if I become aware of those portions of my SELF. Perhaps I will. I do not know what is in store for us all as we move into the higher dimensions. Please enlighten me regarding the old feeling that I am having and regarding how our bodies will transmute as the vibration of the planet rises.
Beloved One,
The part of you that is afraid of death is your body deva. It is afraid that when there is no longer a third dimension it will become extinct. What it needs to know is that it will be raised in vibration just like the rest of you. No portion of your third dimensional self will become extinct. There is no death and there is no extinction. There is only transformation and metamorphosis. As your physical form begins to rise in vibration, the particles will slowly move farther and farther apart.
See yourself now traveling into the heart of an atom. First, see this atom as a small speck in front of you and slowly begin to zoom in on it with your mind-screen. See how this atom is getting larger and larger. See it as a small galaxy with the nucleus being the Central Sun and protons and electrons being the Solar Systems that are orbiting around it. Go next into a place in your body that is a correlate to this atom.
Find the small place in your heart that is opening as you are learning unconditional love. Yes, there it is, right in the very center of your heart. If you cannot enter that small opening in your heart yourself, how can you allow others to enter? First you must open your heart to yourself unconditionally before you can learn to love others in the same way.
“Yes IlliaEm, I am opening my heart to my self. I see the small galaxy that is an atom in the core of my heart. I see the nucleus radiating like a glowing Central Sun. It is inviting me to enter. Will I be extinguished by its Light if I fall into it?”
My dear, you will be extinguished if you do not. Now, see the nucleus grow larger and larger until it is expanded beyond the edges of your inner vision-screen. Do not forget that this is the nucleus of the atom in the core of your heart. This is the core of your Unconditional Love. Deep within the blazing nucleus, you will see a small doorway. It is entirely surrounded by bright light. You will have to feel it more than see it.
“Yes, I see/feel it now. The doorway is opening. It is the darkest dark that I could ever imagine. But wait; in the very center of the void of darkness I see a small light. I move through the doorway into the complete darkness. The darkness is like a black hole. It seems to absorb all of my essence and all of my light. However, there is no sense of good or bad. It is simply a sense of obliteration of all that has ever been.
As I pass through the doorway, it seals shut behind me. I suppose that I should be afraid, but I am not. I feel content, as if I am finally performing the mission for which I first took embodiment. I am also aware of the portion of my self that is third dimensional and sitting at the computer. How will I return to that reality or rather, how can I believe that this reality is as real as that one when I have returned to it? I must believe that this reality is not an illusion. It is the core of my Self, the core of my unconditional love.
“Yes, I am beginning to understand the feeling I have been having, the sadness and the primal fear of extinction. I know now that it is the fear that I have been wrong, that what I have always sought, this doorway into the unknown, is not real, that the outside world of the third dimension is the only realty. Yes, the feeling that has been plaguing me with doubt, self doubt, doubt in my own sanity, doubt that I can be so dedicated to my convictions that I will be able to release the third dimension.”
My Beloved, you do not need to release the physical world. It is a part of your total SELF. It will not be released, but will instead be integrated into the other portions of you. No part of you will become extinct. Just as you are a small portion of me, your Oversoul, your physical self is a small portion of you. Do not abandon it or judge it. It is serving the function for which it has been created. You have given yourself over to be one of the prototypes for the transformation of the physical body.
You have had sensations of loneliness from the third dimension because you have been unable to share your experience with many on that plane. Therefore, it is vital that you build deep and lasting relationships with the other portions of yourself and the world that can only be entered through the doorway to your SELF. Doubt, my dear, is your only enemy.
“I am feeling very different as you speak to me IlliaEm. My body is becoming less and less dense. It feels as though it is expanding to fill the entire room. I feel how it is touching the walls around me and how it is a part of the computer in front of me. I feel my mind like the computer and I have less and less awareness of how my fingers are typing on the keyboard or how it may look upon the screen.
“I am becoming the experience of expansion. As I travel deeper and deeper into the nothingness of this darkness, I see before me a nebula that is of glorious colors of red and violet and pink. I now travel into the core of it and see glimpses of blue and an unusual shade of green that is not possible upon earth.
“As I move through the nebula I see again the distant star. The star is coming towards me very quickly, and it bursts upon me as I burst upon it. I am the star. I am the space around it and I am the nebula. And now IlliaEm, I see you. Your giant wings fill my vision and your heart is fully open. The sun within your heart is rising over the mountains and the stream of life is flowing into me.
“I feel a tingle through my entire self as the “flow” of your essence enters me. The me that sit at the computer is ONE with the me that embraces you. I move into your heart. I follow the life current like a salmon finding its origin. I travel up the stream of life current high into the mountains and into the setting sun as it makes its descent. With the setting sun, I travel beyond what is known, beyond what is perceivable.
“And beyond my perception is Arcturus. I am instantly on Arcturus. I see Lamire, my Divine Complement, preparing his ship for its journey to Earth. He turns, sees me and runs to greet me. We embrace and are instantly ONE. It feels wonderful to be complete again. Can I take this feeling back to my third dimensional self? How long will I have to return to that land of limitation? But as I think that thought, I remember my loved ones and the Nature there. I remember IlliaEm’s words,
‘You do not have to lose any of you. It will all become a portion of your self just, as you are a portion of me.’
Lamire is smiling as I see him before me and within me. The third dimensional portion of me is battling within itself, trying to embrace the foreign concept of multidimensionality. I turn to it and it sees me. I am the eye looking into the heart. We are ONE and ONE and ONE. …… I am seeing the many aspects of myself as in a house of mirrors. There is NO limitation to the echoes of myself. There is NO boundary to experience.
“Kepier, my alternate reality who lives on Arcturus in the time frame correlate to the 21st century Earth, comes to greet me. Kepier is androgynous. We merge into one in greeting and feel IlliaEm join in the merging. I then place Kepier before me in order to communicate with her. She has a special message for me:
‘My dear, I am indeed glad that you have been able to expand your sense of self to encompass this reality. Do you remember when you first left Arcturus to go to Venus in preparation for your journey to Earth? Yes dear, I can see that you do not. I will tell you that story now.
‘It was early dawn upon the planet of Zantrill and the sun was just rising above the horizon. At sunset, you had said good-bye to your comrades who would stay on Arcturus and afterwards spent the hours of darkness in deep meditation. Of course, the time span of light and dark were at your choice because your resonant vibration was the seventh density.
‘However, the rhythm of inflow and outflow was a routine established in your pod and you had all decided to collectively create a sunrise and sunset in order to create a group experience of inflow-darkness and outflow-light. IlliaEm oversaw your pod from dimensions just above your own. All of the members of your pod had volunteered to make the journey to Venus. Some would then move on to Earth when they had learned to survive in a lower density and some would stay in Venus to act as guides for those who went to Earth.
‘There were 40 in your pod and all of you were like the fingers of a hand. You were individual in your consciousness but unified in your awareness and purpose. All of you were androgens. Your pod had chosen to answer the call of Earth and to enter into the great experiment of separation of third dimensional experience. Because all in your pod were one, all would have the experience of third dimensionality even if they remained on Venus. The adventure was beginning. There was no fear or sadness, as you had never experienced those emotions. These emotions would not be a part of your awareness until you joined the evolution of Earth.’”
10-21-95
Feel now the experience of your Arcturian self.
I feel myself as a star. My body is made of light and I look like a star that a child would draw. I have two legs that come down from my middle and two arms that go out from the middle and a head that comes up from the middle. However, there is not the definition of form that I have in my third dimensional self. I am more than androgynous; I am beyond the definition of gender as it is known on Earth.
When I meet other members of the pod, we merge into one person for a greeting and then we regain our individual vessels. These vessels are only individual if I look at the brightest portion of our emanations. If I look more closely, I find that I am connected to all the other members of my pod by a dimmer emanation, like a gossamer wing. This wing, or web, is a network that connects all of us and gives us a group consciousness beyond what my Earth consciousness can even imagine. I only know that I am totally connected to the other members of my pod, the other members of my Self. Through this network, we are in instant and constant communication with each other. We can communicate with all thirty-two portions of ourselves at the same time or with any one of us individually.
We are in preparation for our departure, but I am now realizing that just as we are departing, we are also staying. We are bi-locating. The core of thirty-two will infinitely remain constant as grounding for our universal travels. Since we are beyond the limits of time and space, this is not impossible. We can easily be at two, or in fact many, locations at once. We also can travel away for a very long “time” and when we return, it will be as if we never left. The difference is that we have a new experience within our “beingness.”
I am now experiencing our preparations for our journey to Venus. The final good bye is to the portion of us that is staying. We go into a group stasis, somewhat like Earth sleep, joined together as one unit. Since we have decided to create cycles of what on Earth is know as day and night, we can use the “night,” or inflow cycle, to join into one consciousness and journey to the higher dimensions of ourselves. In the “day,” or outflow cycle, we separate into the thirty-two different portions of ourselves to ground our higher experiences in the seventh dimension of Arcturus. In this way we learn to be of service to others on our plane as well as to others on the lower dimensions.
I now feel us going into our inflow cycle to gather all instructions from our higher selves and to gain our final briefing before our adventure. I am unable to remain conscious during this briefing.
I can only retain a feeling of the messages.
