There is a glimmer
in the back of my mind
and the core of my heart.
This glimmer knows the secret of joy.
This secret is trying to reveal itself
and I am trying to “stop trying”
so that I can accept.
For joy can only live in peace
and peace cannot abide struggle
and when I “try”
it feels like I am struggling.
I know that if I surrender,
surrender to the knowing,
I will gain all that I seek.
But the struggle persists.
Then suddenly
it is gone.
Gone into a moment of insight
a feeling of peace,
or love,
a thought of acceptance
of myself.
I know,
not with my mind,
or even with my heart,
I know with my Soul
that for a breath of the NOW
I am united with Spirit.
And all is peace,
all is joy,
all is love,
and acceptance.
But then
I forget what I know
and how it felt to know it.
I remember that
I must do something-
or go somewhere.
I remember my worries
and I remember my fear.
That fear then blocks the glimmer
and buries the core
and I forget the love.
I forget the love that can
calm the fear
that made me forget.
I forget the love that can
help me to remember the glimmer
and allow it to grow.
Someday,
and I know that day is soon,
the power of the fear
will be reduced to a shadow.
A shadow of the glimmer
that has grown into a
beacon of Light-
the light of LOVE,
A Love I have for myself!
